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  I reached down and gripped his hair in my right hand, pulling. I thought I might hurt him, but all it did was make him moan through his licks and go even faster.

  I was trying to be quiet, I knew that Jason and Lacey were upstairs having sex so they wouldn’t hear me and we were far enough from other houses that I didn’t have to worry about neighbors, but I felt like I was being too loud and that Ryan would make fun of me.

  Before I could even think about quieting down, Ryan slipped a finger between my wet folds and entered me. As soon as he did I opened my eyes and looked down at him.

  He was staring at me with pure lust in his eyes. His mouth was hanging open in concentration to what he was doing.

  I bit my lip as he sat up, not stopping the use of his fingers inside me and kissed me. Hard.

  “You are so fucking tight baby” he whispered as he sat back down and began licking my clit as he worked his fingers in and out of me “So wet”

  He was devouring me, I honestly thought I was going to die. All of a sudden I felt my orgasm take over, I threw my head back and moaned loudly Ryan was still pumping in and out of me as I came down from my high.

  When I was done he moved away and pull my dress down then sat up and kissed me

  “I cannot wait to see your face when I do that again” he said

  Again?

  “God yes” was all I replied

  Ryan laughed

  We sat there, not really saying much for a while, just watching each other. I wanted to ask him a million times what he was thinking but I was scared to find out. He scared me like nothing else.

  All of these feelings were so sudden, and I knew what his reputation was like, Lacey warned me but I couldn’t stop them all from crawling in.

  Ryan spoke first “I’m going to have to have you come by the house for a bit tomorrow. We can sign all of your paper work and I can show you what I need done it might take a few hours, but I will buy you lunch”

  He was being sweet, but it wasn’t the conversation I thought we would be having after what just happened

  “Oh, okay sure I will have Lacey give me the directions what time should I be there”? I asked

  “Can you do 9? I like to work out first thing so that will give me time to finish and shower before you get there” he asked me

  “Yeah, I can do that” I smiled

  He leaned in and kissed me again “I should get going, I need to clean up a bit before you come over tomorrow, I am kind of a slob and Stella only comes over twice a week... neither of those days were today.

  As he walked towards the doors to head inside I walked up and grabbed his arm stopping him “Wait” I said

  He looked at me confused

  “Does this... I mean what we just did, what does it mean?” I asked

  He grinned “what do you want it to mean Em?”

  I paused “I want it to mean that we are going to see where this leads, that we are dating, because I think I like you, and that’s kind of scary.”

  “I don’t really date Em. I mean ever” he said

  “Oh” shrugging my shoulders “it’s totally no big deal, forget I even brought it up

  I turned around to grab my kindle and sit back down feeling his eyes on my back I didn’t look back at him.

  He left

  Chapter 10

  Lacey gave me the address for Ryan, and I punched it into the GPS before pulling out, it was only 10 minutes, but Bradbury had a lot of side streets, and I didn’t want to get lost so I left a few minutes early.

  Lacey and I had talked that night about Ryan’s job offer. She was actually pretty excited for me. She knew that I felt like a burden staying with her and Jason, even though she assured me many times that I was not, I wanted to do something to make money and get my own place. I just didn’t want to spend my dad’s blood money and the rental money for our old house was not enough for a house this close to the big city.

  As soon as I pulled into the big gates, I showed the guard my license he buzzed me through. I drove up to Ryan’s it was big, but it wasn’t mansion big. I knew he had a lot of money, but it was pretty modest.

  I walked to the front door and pushed the doorbell. A few minutes later Ryan answers the door in nothing but a towel, water droplets falling down his face and bare chest

  He is freaking ripped!

  “Um, sorry” I say looking down. “I’m early but I wanted to make sure I didn’t get lost. I’m not use to this town yet”

  He laughs and turns to let me pass by him “that’s okay, just let me run upstairs and get dressed”

  He leaves me to head up but I don’t move. I’m remembering his conversation about not dating ever and I feel uncomfortable just being here

  As soon as he comes down he laughs at me “you can come in you know, this house is huge the doorway is not the best part”

  I look up at him, he has a tight pair of blue jeans and a button down white dress shirt on.

  He look gorgeous, which makes my stomach fill with butterflies like a fucking 9 year old school girl

  “Come into the kitchen, I have the paperwork all set up so we can go over it all”

  I follow him into the kitchen and I am shocked to see the wall lined with pots and pans of different sizes.

  He follows my gaze and looks back at me “I’m a really good cook”

  I look at him slightly shocked “I figured you would be the ‘pizza 3 nights Chinese 4’ kind of guy”

  “No, I only order out when I have been working a lot I find cooking to be relaxing don’t be so judgmental” he said poking me in the side

  I take a conscious step back, not wanting to give him any signs that I want a repeat of yesterday just so I can be shut down.

  He notices, his brown furrowing

  “So” he says leading me to the table “this is the shit load of papers you need to sign and fill out to work for me”

  I looked through them, most of them were just tax papers. I started filling them out while he sat there watching me. Always watching.

  “What did you do last night after I left?” he asked quietly

  “I hung out with Lacey and watched a movie, then she called your friend Alex and invited him over for dinner. She’s pretty excited”

  He was quiet, I looked up at him but he was looking behind him at something

  “Alex is coming to your house tonight?” he asked looking back at me

  “Not my house, but yeah he’s coming over Jason and Lacey want me to meet him, and they said they haven’t seen him lately so it’s really perfect timing”

  He didn’t respond, just pushed another set of papers in front of me

  “Excuse me, I need to use the phone”

  What the fuck was his deal?

  I ignored it and went back to filling out the mountain of papers. They were asking for tax information, criminal history it was just like a normal job application. I thought it would be a little different working with someone who made 100 million dollars a year. Guess not.

  That’s when I heard him yelling into the phone

  “Why the fuck would you do this to me Lacey, I want to know why……….You know I can’t just fucking date her, that’s not me and I sure as shit am not going to change my whole life for one chick…….No I do like her, but it means nothing…….Fine do what you want, but I am coming too”

  It means nothing...

  Fuck him.

  I have no idea what the fuck his issue in life is, or why he feels it is okay to be hot one second and cold the next, but I am done.

  He comes back in and sits down “sorry I had to call my agent about something”

  He’s not looking at me.

  “That’s fine, I’m about done”

  I flip over the last set of papers and notice that they have an official seal on them with the bold letters ‘non-disclosure agreement

  “What’s this” I ask

  “That is an NDA, you need to sign it, and it basically says that anything you
learn or see while you work for me you won’t sell to a reporter when you are done” he’s still not looking at me

  I signed the paper. I wasn’t the kind of person who would tell anyone anything he ever told me anyway, but obviously he didn’t trust me

  “So” I said setting the pen down “anything else?”

  “Yeah, let me give you a tour and tell you what I need from you” he stood up, eyes still not meeting mine

  He leads me through the house, 3 bathrooms, and 5 bedrooms. He didn’t show me where his room was, but he showed me all the guest rooms, they were beautiful, one was light pink I looked at him questioningly

  “The previous owner had a baby, this was the nursery. I never got around to changing the décor” his tone didn’t really leave room for questions

  “So really what my PA usually does is follow me around. I don’t really know what I will need until I need it. I won’t make you follow me onto each and every set, but sometimes I am going to need your help with different things so if I call you, you can just come to me, or you can stay with me while I work, whatever you think will be easiest”

  “Can we decide later, for now I will come by when you need me and we can go from there, Lacey said I might be able to do most of what you need from home?”

  He looked at me for a long moment before he answered “Whatever works for you”

  “Okay, well if that’s all I will be heading out”

  I knew he forgot about offering me lunch, and I wasn’t about to bring it up. Clearly he got what he needed from me.

  He opened the front door and I passed by him, when I reached the bottom of the stairs I looked back at him. He was checking his phone

  “So about Alex, Lacey tells me he is single but Jason tells me I should stay away from him... What do you say?”

  Ryan looks at me, steps back and slams the door.

  Not the response I was expecting.

  But I couldn’t help but smile.

  Chapter 11

  Ryan texted me about 2 hours after I left

  R: Are you serious about what you said before you left?

  E: Why?

  R: I’m just wondering how you go from letting one guy eat you out and finger fucking you, to asking about another guy 24 hours later

  E: are you implying that I’m a whore Ryan?

  R: No, but I just find it weird

  E: It’s not weird Ryan, I want to be fucked, but I want a relationship so I am on the lookout. Don’t worry I won’t come bothering you for either, your safe from me ;)

  R: Fuck you

  E: You wish

  I came home, showered got dressed as cute as I felt appropriate for a back yard BBQ and went into the kitchen to help Lacey prepare dessert.

  “So Ryan is really pissed off about Alex coming over tonight” I say to her “why do you think that is?”

  She looks at me and laughs “you heard him screeching at me on the phone did you?”

  “God he sounded like a fucking maniac” I laughed

  She stops smiling “I think Ryan has a hell of a lot more feelings for you than he is willing to admit. The fact that he went down on you yesterday and still offered you a job says something, I just don’t know what”.

  I looked down at what she was doing, thinking about what she was telling me

  “Lacey, I asked him out like a fucking kid. I asked him to date me to see where we could go with things and his response was ‘I don’t date Emmalyn, ever’ so I think it’s pretty safe to say that Mr. movie star doesn’t want anything to do with me”

  Lacey looked at me and frowned “He told Jason he wants you”

  “Of course he does, he wants to fuck me and call it good. But you and I both know I am not that kind of girl, I need to feel wanted, and I can’t just have sex with him I would need to be in some kind of relationship. I would need to feel loved I can’t be someone’s fuck buddy. That’s just not who I am”

  She looked at me for several minutes “Emmy, I honestly have been watching him watch you for the last 4 months. I haven’t wanted to say anything to you, because I wanted to see what he would do with it but even Jason has noticed and that man is oblivious to everything.”

  “Ryan wants you, I think he might even be falling for you. He watches every single move you make. Whenever you speak he watches your face. When you stand up to leave the room for something, his body stiffens like you being away from him makes him uncomfortable”

  “But” she goes on “I also know that he’s starting to go down an unknown path, and he could lash out at any moment. He’s an amazing guy, you have seen that for yourself but he’s broken too. It doesn’t matter how many good people he has in his life, he remembers the words of that one bad person and it fucks him up. He might fall for you, he might turn out and love you like you have been wanting to be loved your whole life since... Daddy, but he might turn out and shatter your heart to a million pieces and Emma I am in a really sticky spot between wanting to see him love and wanting to keep your heart safe. I don’t know who will heal first from either occasion.”

  I felt confused. I knew what she was saying. Ryan could have feelings for me, well clearly he did. But at the same time he could choose to act on those and rip me to pieces if something went wrong. I had to decide what to do.

  “Lacey, I don’t think we need to worry about that just yet. Let’s just hang out tonight and see how everything goes”. I pick up the cream pie she just made and stick it in the fridge

  As soon as I closed the door, I heard the doorbell ring.

  “I’ll get it” I shout out

  As soon as I open the door, I see a really pretty fake blonde haired Barbie standing at the door with her arms wrapped around Ryan’s waist

  He looks at me and smiles “hey Emmalyn, this is my date” putting emphasis on the word date “Kelly, this is Lacey’s little sister and my new assistant Emmalyn”

  His date?

  I looked at him, his stupid fucking smile is plastered on his face

  I turn on my fake smile and reach my hand out to hers “Oh my God, it’s so great to meet you Lacey and Jason are out back if you want to join them, I’m just going to run and grab something out of my room”

  I step out of the doorway as they pass by and Ryan purposely rubs against me as he passes. I don’t bother to look up at him

  I head towards my room, but take a quick peak towards the back yard doors and see Ryan has bimbo Kelly pushed up against the fridge, sucking on her neck, she turns her head to the left and he looks up at me and smiles, reaching his hand between her legs under her dress.

  I shake my head and walk to my room and grab my phone to text Lacey

  E: So about those feelings you were talking about earlier, I think you might be wrong for the first time, Ryan and his girlfriend are headed your way

  L: Are you fcking –Oh shit

  E: Yeah... So let’s not worry about that anymore okay?

  L: Are you alright E?

  E: Sure, I mean I finally let a guy feel me up and I get dropped like last week’s mail hours later, I am totally cool. Don’t worry about it

  Before I had a chance to read her response, the doorbell rang

  I headed to the front door and when I opened it I was stunned

  This must be Alex.

  He was just as built as Ryan was, but his arms were covered in tattoo’s he had on a Red Sox hat backwards and he was messing with his tongue ring between his front teeth. He had espresso colored eyes, and a flawless face

  He was hot.

  “You must be Alex, I’m Emmalyn, Lacey’s sister”

  He walked through the doors and reached over and gave me a hug

  Holy shit he smelled amazing

  “It’s so great to meet you, Jason wasn’t kidding you really are hot”

  I laughed

  “So I hear Ryan’s here as well?” He asked

  “Yeah, he and bimbo Barbie are already outback” I motioned towards the back

  “You mean he
brought a girl to his brother’s house” he asked confused

  “Um yeah, is that bad?” I asked him

  “No, I mean I have never seen him bring a date to Lacey and Jason’s... Ever. He normally doesn’t do dates. Who knows with him, I can’t keep up with his changing ways” he laughs lightly

  “Me either, and I have only known him a few months” I say

  He looks at me, “well then, shall we join the rest of them”? He reaches out his hand for me to take and we walk out back

  As soon as we get out back, I notice that Lacey and Jason are standing by the grill deep in conversation. Barbie and Ken are sitting at the table, she’s on his lap sucking his face. I mean seriously, if he doesn’t have a red ring around his mouth –the kind you would get as a kid when you sucked too hard on your cup- I would be shocked

  Alex doesn’t let go of my hand as we walk further out, I can hear Ryan growl as we make our presence known, but I choose not to look, for fear that it might burn my eyes if its bimbo doing what I assume she does best

  Jason turns around as we approach them and yells “A-man what the fuck took you so long”? They pound fists Alex lets go of my hands and hugs Lacey.

  She’s just started to show, she has been buying the most adorable maternity shirts that are pretty form fitting around a budding baby bump, she’s the cutest damn pregnant woman I’ve ever seen

  “Hi mommy” he says to Lacey with a laugh

  She giggles, turning pink and rubbing her belly

  She leans towards me and smiles “Ryan is fucking pissed”

  “Oh well, he can take it out on his date”

  Alex leaned in too “what are we whispering about?” he smiled

  He really was a good looking guy, I don’t know why Lacey didn’t talk about him before last night other than in passing with Ryan

  “Ryan being a douche” I tell him

  “What else is new?” he snorts

  “He doesn’t matter, he just wants shit for free and that’s not how life works” I said, grabbing his hand and leading him towards the table

  Ryan was glaring at me from his seat, Kelly was leaning over whispering something into his ear